“i’m lost here, by the grace of God, we’re still f*cking breathing” — Tiffany Day & glaive, MEANT TO BE

“you choose to sit on the sidelines because you’re afraid!” — Sandra Voyter (Sandra Hüller), Anatomy of a Fall

made this poster after an unexpected internal crash out abt my place as synthographer (yet again). it started when i saw a video on yt abt an angry critique on higgsfield

tl;dw, they were making aggressive promises (marketing as a way to replace human creators) and promote misleading services. but the one that struck me the most is when they claim that using a prompt mean that i never truly love creating. p*tang*na, na naman

don’t get me wrong, i honestly didn’t like higgsfield bc i’m so much into anime and it wasn’t meant for me, but that concluding generalization is just so stupid. so much, it’s calling me to quit, despite that i said everything on “no bad memories” 2 weeks ago

after that video, this song came up in my head and thought i could make a beautiful poster with it. but that left me wondering…

why is it so hard to live as a 3rd year multimedia artist? why am i so hyperfixated on those f*cking comments section instead of creating? why do i have to always rely on f*cking external validation? DEAR GOD, WHY DOES EVERYTHING HAS TO HURT ME?

i got no more luck left, i’m so alone

(key visual made with pixai’s tsubaki.3 model)