a month ago, something heavy happened, something personal, and, as the motivational speakers say, I "killed the boy"... If you asked me years ago what would adolescence be to me, I would've said "sleepovers with friends!", today I say "boredom". not pain, that word is too heavy, this... thing is something that eats you from the inside, it's slow and easy to cure, but lethal. and the hardest part is that is "easy" to cure, emphasis on "easy", because it IS easy to hit the gim, be more sociable, improve your life, but we can't see that ways, we're full of blind spots in our own mind that we don't see the exit to our own pain. Luckly, I saw mine, it's coming next year and it's called "school", but for anyone that is struggling... take it from me, a man that tried to end it, life is wonderful, and you don't notice it not because the fools are happy, but is the other way around. a happy person never ask itself why it's happy, so stop overthinking everything, live here, in YOUR flesh, and NEVER allow your flesh to command you. Bye