A long time ago I was hopeful & i used to cuddle my pillow every night with my legs & all. then after one of the many unspeakable events in my life happened, i stopped cuddling & every night I'd have nightmares & cry in bed before sleeping for about a year,

But now I don't do those things. I just sleep on my stomach & rest my head on my arm feeling the warmth. I can't cry anymore sometimes my eyes water but that's it nothing comes out anymore & I'm just stuck with that stinging feeling in my throat.

I'm okay being alone i'm not interested in dating anymore or people in general.

I do crave to be touched, on my sides & on my ribs, to be appreciated again. Loved even. Maybe in another life.